I lost my laptop somewhere in between SF and LA and a couple of shots and a fight with a dude. So that’s a bummer. Hopefully it will turn up, but you know, it probably won’t.
I was robbed this week. Missing some very valuable things. Can’t figure out who my fucking agent at State Farm is. So, not much help with the renters insurance yet.
My mouth is dry and tastes of coffee. But like coffee powder.
I had a panic attack last night so I took about 9 ativans and that’s all I remember about that. Then time to wake up.
I basically feel like I’m dying, it’s 6am on Mother’s Day. Happy Mother’s Day mommies!! And my mommy in particular.
So since I’m bad at letting people know what’s going on here ya go.
I flew to Mexico with Brande on April 25. Flew back April 29 to LA. Flew to SF on the 30th, shot public disgrace at night and flew to Kentucky in the morning. Flew back to LA on the 6th. Flew to sacramento the 8th for a hearing. Flew back to la. Now flying back to Sacramento.
Also i haven’t been home at all. My friend Victor is trying to cut back on his drinking and he can’t be alone so I’ve spent every night since I got back from Kentucky with him. His house is beautiful but I had a panic attack last night because, I guess I just needed some me time..
Southwest isn’t giving the credit I deserve. I should be preferred by now god dammit!
I’m ready for laser eye surgery on Tuesday. I hope it works and I never have to wear glasses again.
I heard that my IUD is potentially inferring with my cortisol levels? Anyone know about that?
I’m freezing. I have nothing in my bag. It’s just for show I guess. It had a laptop at one point, but……meh. You win some you lose some.
I’m involved in some fun social circles where everyone acts like your friend but is really your enemy and you always have to watch your back. Which kind of perpetuates the shitty cycle.
I miss having friends. Like I had in SF. I have 3 max in LA. So that is sort of sad for me.
I want to go to the bathroom and wash my face and brush my teeth before the flight, but knowing my luck I’ll miss the flight if I do that. So…..
Oh I also lost my wallet. Did I already say that? Cool. Just want to make sure the full shit show package is clear.
And I want a classic car, and an RV, and the money that was stolen from me back, and to not be around untrustworthy snake children anymore.
I have no present for my mother except the fact that I am flying to see her and that is making me cry as I stand in line to board the plane.
So there I am in a nutshell.